Day 115 of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 115 of Benzo Withdrawal

My outlook has changed pretty significantly since I last wrote. Even the title of this feels wrong. It’s not “withdrawal” that is causing these symptoms. It’s damage to the GABA receptors. I know that mine are healing. And as they do, the symptoms become less severe....
Day 104 of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 104 of Benzo Withdrawal

Symptoms have been bothering me the last five days. Again, nothing as severe as they used to be. But it’s taking a toll nonetheless. Especially the insomnia. Last night, I think I only got about 3 1/2 hours of sleep. Today there is a lot of pressure in my face. I can...
Day 96 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 96 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Finally! I feel like today will be my day of relief. I slept well last night. It’s the first time I have slept through the night in a while without nagging withdrawal symptoms. I woke up at 6 AM (earlier than I normally would) but that’s OK. When I woke up, I did not...
Day 94 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 94 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Thank God for this diary. Sometimes writing is the only release I can find. I’m hoping that at this moment, it will prove to be just that. I had a series of good days. I think four or five days went by that I was feeling pretty good. About half of the day yesterday...
Day 86 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 86 Of Benzo Withdrawal

I feel like it has been a difficult two weeks. I hadn’t been taking any notes, so I’m not sure if it has been more difficult or less difficult than previous weeks. All I know for certain, is that I did not have very many “window“ days or even times. Actually, the...