Benzo Life, Withdrawal & Recovery

To date, the most profound realization in my life was learning that more than half of it was so manufactured. I was prescribed Klonopin at a young age. It was a difficult time in my life and I was not informed or aware of the dangers that came with that drug.

Without getting into the science of how the drug works, I will just say it’s debilitating  in many ways.  For 27 years, I functioned at a limited capacity. I suffer through humiliating side effects, under the false pretense that the drug was helping me with the problems it was actually creating.

This is where I will talk about my benzo life experiences, the hellish withdrawal that takes the lives of many, and the rebirth and recovery that I am still experiencing today.

 

 

 

 

 

Day 104 of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 104 of Benzo Withdrawal

Symptoms have been bothering me the last five days. Again, nothing as severe as they used to be. But it’s taking a toll nonetheless. Especially the insomnia. Last night, I think I only got about 3 1/2 hours of sleep. Today there is a lot of pressure in my face. I can...

Day 96 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 96 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Finally! I feel like today will be my day of relief. I slept well last night. It’s the first time I have slept through the night in a while without nagging withdrawal symptoms. I woke up at 6 AM (earlier than I normally would) but that’s OK. When I woke up, I did not...

Day 94 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 94 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Thank God for this diary. Sometimes writing is the only release I can find. I’m hoping that at this moment, it will prove to be just that. I had a series of good days. I think four or five days went by that I was feeling pretty good. About half of the day yesterday...

Day 86 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 86 Of Benzo Withdrawal

I feel like it has been a difficult two weeks. I hadn’t been taking any notes, so I’m not sure if it has been more difficult or less difficult than previous weeks. All I know for certain, is that I did not have very many “window“ days or even times. Actually, the...

Day 83 Of Benzo Withdrawal

Day 83 Of Benzo Withdrawal

First off, let’s address the number 83. Normally when people talk about withdrawal, they probably think a week or two. It’s a common timeframe for alcohol and opioid addiction. In these cases, people can enter a detox facility in rapidly expel the drug from their...

The Mad Science Of Cutting Pills

The Mad Science Of Cutting Pills

Tapering can be tricky when the science comes down to a milligram of how much medicine you take. Several months ago, I used to just eye it. I'd look at the pill and cut it in half. With the larger dosage when I first started my tapering, maybe that was more...

Benzo withdrawal: Making heroin withdrawal look like a piece of cake since 1960.

“This drug won’t help, but its side effects will put your problems to shame.” ― More or less the message from the FDA

“Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.” ― J. K. Rowling

We are too young to want to stop living, because after all, we shouldn’t stop something we haven’t yet started.